No Instagram. No Facebook. No Twitter. No Tumblr. No Anything.
I may lack in social media, but here is what I have gained.
Self-confidence. Hope. Faith. God. Real Friends. Time. Bliss. Laughter. Ease. Yoga. Love. Happiness. Knowledge. Fire. Passion. Kindness. Myself. Freedom. Patience. Fervor. Emotion. Happy tears. Empathy. Simplicity.
Letting go of an identity that once controlled me has set me free.
"When I accept myself, I am freed from the burden of needing you to accept me." ~Dr. Steve Maraboli
Being social media free is possibly the greatest gift I have given myself. This sense of clarity has given me opportunities I never would have had if I had my nose buried in my phone. Yesterday I was riding in a car with my softball team when the coach looked over to me and said "You are the only reason I am sane!" Thank you, Ricky!
The greatest thing I have gained is myself, which sounds odd to say, but there was no time to discover myself when is was trying to micro-manage my life through social media. Orchestrating, editing, then re-editing my good moments and deleting my bad seemed like it actually worked. The only thing that achieved was a thoroughly stressed, tired, and non-version of myself that I thought was my identity.
I don't know if I could ever re-enter the realm of social media that I once seemed like my sanctuary. The bad vibes it promoted to me are now a toxic waste I fear to ingest for the sake of my newly purifing soul.
Over the past six months I have been soul searching and filling my soul with the good, happy things in my life. I have found three solid foundations that I can pour my heart out to. I have discovered purpose within my life and I can continue to do so. I have found inspirations that shake my heart and open my eyes. I have become a person I am satisfied with being.
I may not have it all figured out, but that is the joy of living, loving, and seeking.
I'm getting there.
p.s. This is my personal experience with the way I was letting social media control my life. Social media isn't bad unless it becomes you. If you feel this way, put your phone away and detox for a couple of hours. I am not trying to put social media down, I am simply telling you my story.